"March or the Beginning"
May 25th, 2013; facebook; AFG
The Face messages:
Emptylamb: we were talking for like three hours and she’s so amazing!!! like AMAZING!!! I’ve been wanting to talk about it all day but everyone’s kind of down so I’ve just had to hold it in ya know?
Friend: awwwww Lamb!!! Thats soooo good. You met her there at [redacted]?? Thats soooo good for you Lamboooo
Emptylamb: aww now I’m coming down off my high horse, saddly no, not at [redacted]
and well, she’s kind of…[redacted]…
but we had such a great talk and that’s got to count for something right?
Friend: awww, it does count!! but be careful with [redacted]!! lol, i know from experience. lol
Emptylamb: that’s why I’m so glad I could talk to you cause you’re FREAKING AWESOME!!!
Emptylamb: but yeah, I know, that’s why I’m trying so hard to ignore that for now and just enjoy the fact that she the greatest person I’ve ever talked to
Friend: lol, im the greated person you ever talked to..lol, but yeaaa thats good! sorry i went to play basketball and shit
Emptylamb: naw it’s all good, I just, I can’t describe it, it’s just like that conversation alone gave me hope in the world and the future and angels are real and happiness exists
real true bliss, joy, something greater than anything I’ve come to know
Friend: aww, what the hell did yall talk about?? like shit that youre hella interested in?? yall have a lot in common?
Emptylamb: that the thing, our first conversation was just about nothing, we were just introducing ourselves
Friend: ohhhh ok!! I see i see. Well I am truly happy for you my friend!! yay!!
Emptylamb: she was so classy ya know?
like she was able to follow what I was saying even though, heck you’ve talked to me, sometimes I’m just way out there
Friend: lmfaooo!!! yea, i know Lamb.. I dont understand half the shit you be saying too me!!! lol
Emptylamb: that’s the thing, she did, she did and she even called me out on my bs, but was just the kindest soul, like just so honest and sincere and caring and compassionate and just like she shinned like a light
Friend: aw Lamb. you sound as if you really like her!! be careful Lamb! shes [redacted] ok!!! i dont want to have to hurt her for breaking your heart!! but if you like her then i like her right now! lol.
Emptylamb: I know! And the worst part is she [redacted]! But she’s so freaking one of a kind like you don’t even know!
I just want to tell the world about her but I want to keep her all to myself but she’s not mine to have and then I start to get down but then I remember our talk and the email she sent me today and it’s like I’m floating on freaking clouds
Friend: aww, well just see what happens Lamb! dont get all caught up in it and shit!! but see what happens. i can tell she makes you all happpy and shit.
Emptylamb: she really does, and it’s kind of scary cause you’re absolutely right, this could go bad and if it does it’ll be REALLY REALLY bad but I just, iunno I just wanted to share that with someone, I just had to because it felt like my heart was going to explode and I’m so thankful for you letting me share it with you…
Conversation drifts to other things…
Emptylamb: I’m going to admit something to you that I’m going to trust you with so please bare with me but I’m afraid to met her, like she’s that kind of exceptional where the closer I get the happier I’ll feel my the more risky that something will destroy it all like us meeting and me not being what she expected or us meeting and she being nothing like she is when we speak online or just any sort of a hundred things that could go wrong
Conversation drifts once more…