I have to stop giving in. It’s not healthy for or right to her. To continue would hinder her chances at a happiness with what she already has.
I want her more than my next breath. Everything that has ever happened has been solely to get to this point. She is the best this world could offer. If it is the last thing I do, I’ll become worthy of her grace.
I am the worst. There’s no good an association with whatever I am can offer. I am the abyss and can only invite the same into any who’d attempt to share my existence.Can’t allow my darkness to smother her light. Go, leave me to the nothingness I’m destined to return to. The only home fit for such a lowly being.